Bears Not Bombs

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If you follow me on instagram at shaggykdm, you’ve probably seen the series with Buddha the Bear and my #bearsnotbombs tags. There is a story to it and I hope  that it might inspire you to join in.

I’m in my mid-thirties and I have teddy bears and other cuddlies (Stoner the sheep, Hello Kitty, a couple of other bears and pups). I am a firm believer in giving teddy bears to comfort others in their times of need, especially kids! There is a lot going on in this world and it makes me sad knowing that there is a kid out there who may not have a cuddle buddy to help them with their stress.

I’ve heard about the Israel/Palestine conflict, the Ebola outbreak in Africa and the crimes against people here in the U.S. for far too damn long. As the child of a retired inner city school teacher, I have heard the stories of those kids and their parents quite often and have always felt some sadness over not being able to help more.

Buddha was bought at a Kohl’s store in Albuquerque because he is a part of the Kohl’s Cares initiative. The initiative donates 100% of the profits from sales on Buddha and his friends to various organizations that helps kids. Find out more about the program at Kohl’s Cares. My friend/lil’ sis thought I was crazy at first, but now, she helps me find places to have Buddha chill at. He’s gone to fashion and art exhibits; hiking in the mountains; had coffee all over and hell, enjoyed pizza with me. He’s a talking point as people stare at me wondering why I carry a bear with me. He has even done a couple of fashion shoots. Check out Monica Duran to see if she still has the pic of them up together.

The reason the tag BearsNotBombs is used is because I would rather see groups drop teddy bears than bombs. Promote peace through the cuddlies instead of fear through metal and other things. I would rather see my money spent on teddy bears going into hospitals to give comfort. Books, bears and music give comfort to kids.

I’m asking you all, to get a teddy bear, photograph your bear (you can be in it too) and use the tag #bearsnotbombs. Let’s find a way to help kids around the world.

If you want to do something awesome, check out

Kohl’s Cares

St. Judes Hospital

Children’s Miracle Network

Make A Wish

Starlight Foundation

Red Cross/ Red Crescent

Toys For Tots


Ronald McDonald House

or… just look at Charity Navigator and find an organization.

Please, do what you can to promote peace via the sweet Teddy Bear! Buddha and I thank you!

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Much love, peace and harmony to you all! Jah Bless!

The Cover Letter! Let’s Talk!

Dear employer who wants an awesome, creative and cool employee who works smart,

I am KDM, a photographer, blogger, video editor and author who is a big tech geek and electronics nerd. I wanted to find a kick butt way of introducing you to ME, a very… open-minded, eccentric (in a very good way) and optimistic person who… wants to work for you! Sure, I figured, I would rather give you something a bit different, something that shows my skill set not just talk about it.
I want you to go into an interactive journey with me via the web. Where you can see my earlier works that aren’t easily definable. These are the articles, the videos/films, the photo shoots, the blogs and other things that I have done that highlight what I can do. They show my potential to grow with YOU! They cover those so-called gaps in my résumé.

Here are examples of my work:

Social Media/Blog and/or Video Work done for and maintained by clients:
Project Grow New Zealand- Blog created & maintained: May/June 2010
Artist Allison Lefcort Promo Video- Created: Jan 2011
Cass Mitchell Music- Photos/Videos (June and Aug 2012), Tinker EP Artwork (CD and Digital) and Social Media (Facebook, Twitter, YouTube) created/maintained (Aug 2012-April 2013)


Film Editing: Tailed (June 2013) and Low Tide in the High Desert (June 2011)
Low Tide in the High Desert (Director’s Cut)

Tailed (Director’s Cut)



Prints for Sale

Music Videos done for barter with Elevenpm recording studios

One of the videos done during my time with PCL that reflects determination and tenacity. I had a slight fear of heights… now? I want to do more of…

This video is one of my most recent and involves Sacramento Valley Chorus. They are now using one as their home page starting point.


There are a lot of stories that have come from the travels and odd jobs. Each having an example of characteristics that I have developed. The first story of determination and time management comes from the time where I while working at Project Grow, I had to wheelbarrow mulch from a half mile away (one way) back to the yard. I had to get as much mulch as possible in a morning period because we were expecting heavy rain and wind for the next three. We wanted to mulch as many of our seedlings in as we could. In a 4.5 hour period, I cleared 90 percent of the mulch from the place and had it spread on our plants. It started raining as I was dumping and spreading the last load, but I knew the plants would be ok.

Another example of change and time management was getting Cass Mitchell’s EP Artwork done back in Jan so that the CD could be pressed.

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I had to turn the CD cover and CD label artwork quickly (less than a week) and deliver the files via yousendit to the company pressing the CD.

The books… all three and their variations? Came from being determined and doing research about where and how I can get my photography and poetry out to the public. To get the biggest spread possible for the poetry, I used two services (Createspace and Lulu) to help me distribute the works. Blurb distributes both photo books for me. These choices were made after months of research on various blogs and through magazines.

The next story deals with the two film edits. Both Tailed and Low Tide in the High Desert were apart of the Roswell Cosmicon and 7 Day shootout. The shootout had crews shooting scripts that won the scriptwriting contest. The films had to be shot and edited in 7 days (6.5 days really), with an extremely limited budget. To make the task a bit easier, I edited on set! Me, a laptop (mac for Low Tide and Win7 for Tailed), a card reader and a hard drive. The locations of both films made the task quite interesting. Low Tide was shot on a lake and Tailed… had a mix of locations so I had to adjust accordingly. The logistics for both films provided challenges that allowed me to grow. The version of Tailed that is posted above is the director’s cut. There are a couple of differences between it and the festival cut. The main difference is that there were no opening credits in the festival cut because we wanted to get right into the film and make sure we stayed under the time limit.

Both films made the deadline and have gone on to have more success. Both films won the audience award for the festival. Low Tide went on to screen at various film festivals including the Phoenix Film Festival. Tailed is now a web series that we all will hope go further. You can find out more about Tailed at

The last and biggest story though comes from how I have funded the travel. I sit on whatever money I can, and that can be hard considering I am a gadget geek. I love my gadgets, but I love to travel more. I book photo sessions and video edits when they arise. I also use crowdsource funding! Indiegogo and GoFundMe have been my friends on my adventures. To get people to fund is a task in itself and while I have not raised enough funds to avoid eating packaged ramen, I still have gone for it anyway! My most recent crowdsource campaign is The effort was made and I have learned from it.

As demonstrated, I am a diverse; creative and eccentric (in a good way) worker who will give you ALL that I can give. I want to show my skills for you. I want to grow in my skills as we all grow together and produce the best product possible, regardless of what the task/field is. Allow me the opportunity to work for you. I look forward to hearing from you soon. You can reach me through the form below!

Thank you for your time and consideration.




New Poem- Puzzle

This is my new poem, Puzzle. Please give feedback and enjoy.


A corner here,
A curved middle there,
This multi-K pieced thing,
We call life,
Has us all joyous and flustered,
At the same time.
Trying to make a complete image,
Difficult to do when there are:
Missing pieces,
Damaged pieces,
No-sense making pieces,
Non-properly fitting pieces,
All of it confusing us to hell.
Leading us
to denial,
to frustration,
Leaving us
Finally accepting,
It’s never truly complete,
Still weird when we die,
Yet we try,
To nearly have complete,
The puzzle,
We know as,
Our lives.

©KDM 2014

Thank you for reading! Much love, peace and joy to you all!

Compassion vs Cold

The question of being compassionate versus cold lays in the back of my mind like a side dish pot on the back burner of a stove during the holidays. Both slowly simmering until ready with the taste of Joy or bitterness.

Deep down I wonder is compassion forged in the fires of multiple situations including cruelty or is it forged in the fires of our upbringing by people who want better for their children and the world in which they grow up.

I would rather be kind and compassionate, not spitting venomous words like a snake striking for a meal or to protect itself.

What makes me sad is that there are some that mistake kindness and compassion for weakness. They figure a person has no backbone when they are kind and compassionate to other beings. I say it is the opposite. I believe that kindness and compassion are signs of strength.

When you can be kind and compassionate in even the most trying of times, you are showing a grace that is beautiful and strong. You are helping someone else see beauty in a difficult situation and that takes an extremely strong person to do it.

I’ve been and am in a situation where yes, I could be extremely cold and calloused. Thing is, I won’t be because 1. It’s not helping anyone and 2. It’s not my nature. Even when folks throw their issues upon me saying that they are my issues, I would still want to be kind and show compassion.

We can be kind and compassionate while still saying “not my monkeys, not my circus.” Be kind and compassionate, yet don’t let your peace be destroyed. Take a moment to smell the flowers, look at the sky and feed critters.


Thank you for reading! Much love, peace and blessings to you all. Peace out!

Don’t Live Someone Else’s Constructed Life- Live for YOU!

The blog I am writing was inspired from a video saw by vlogger Jouelzy through the For Harriet site. She was talking about how she lost friends because they didn’t support her ambitions. Peep the video below.

It occurred to me after watching the video that 1. I had sunk some of my ambitions to please others and 2. Jouelzy was right about how we all have our different paths. My mom says different strokes for different folks.

I felt Jouelzy in how she was commenting on how people talked about her “commitment” and “work ethic.” I have been in that position before and it’s not nice. In my case, people forget that I have had my own photo/video thing for over 13 years now. That I have freelanced for other folks when I haven’t worked for corporations. They forget that that while I have traveled, I have worked for my room and board in various spots and before hitting the road, saved and sacrificed.

When it comes to work ethic… writing poetry and just publishing the book is no easy feat. The first book “The ?s 4 Us” took a long time to get together because I had to revisit a few things. This second book, while taking a shorter amount of time, is still taking time and energy to put together. It’s the same thing with my photography work also. It takes time and energy to put together a collection for folks to see and… perhaps buy.

Jouelzy brought me back to reality. She made me look at what is true for me. What I want and how I will go about it.

I want to be an awesome media person… not just a photographer/videographer. I want to be able to write stories and press releases, help set up informative meetings and help reach out to the community by various means. I also want to help educate people on technology (how to use it effectively) and information gathering. When I am not doing those things… writing poetry & music (and publishing both), gardening, playing with my dog (when I get one) and road trips will fill my time.

I don’t want to waste time worrying about naysayer frienemies. They steal the joy in life. I don’t want my Joy jacked by folks who are mad because of the drama in their lives. Don’t get me wrong, a good; supportive friend should and will call you out on drama that shouldn’t be. However, when they attack your ambitions, dreams and goals? Time for them to go!

You have to live YOUR life. Not the one that everyone else is trying to construct for you. Living your life means living your truth and your dreams. DO IT!! LIVE! I will bet you that you’ll find a lot more of what you define as success that way.

Much love to Jouelzy and For Harriet for bringing to light something that I suspect many of us have had happen.

Peace and much love to you all! Goddess bless!

Reviews Blues… No! Embrace and learn!

While going through my online profiles, I discovered that I had a review for “Quilt.”  It was, well…Screenshot 2014-06-13 11.21.35First, I was disheartened. I didn’t want to see negative feedback but… I remembered this article about ten pieces of counterintuitive advice by Entrepreneur magazine. Elon Musk said to seek negative feedback. I’m an artist, but at the same time, I am an entrepreneur. I hear the critics now… “two totally different things… being an artist and being an entrepreneur.” They are, but they are not at the same time. Both seek to create new ideas, new views. The artist may want to improve the world through art while the entrepreneur wants to do it through a product or service. Both in their own way wants to make the world a better place. So to me, the article works on a lot of levels.

Thinking of  Elon’s advice, it struck me, this person did me a huge favor. They made me wonder, why was it horrible? What could I do better? Were the images I selected strong enough? Could I have done a better layout? Could I have tightened up the editing? How could I be a better photographer and book designer? This was my first full on public offering of a photo book of my work and I wasn’t sure about how it could be better. It is my first piece, and I will leave it as a reminder that I can and will be better.

This bit of negative feedback helped me and to that person who gave it, I am forever grateful.

I’m working on the second photo book now, along with my next collection of poetry. I’m actively seeking advice on the layouts for both and the manuscript for the poetry because, I want to see what the feeling is. Sometimes another set of eyes will give insight that you can’t get from your own. Hopefully, the eyes will interpret the feel! You all shall soon see both works! Check out the first two books on the KDMArts tab.

Check out the article on Entrepreneur and go for your dreams! Take life by the horns and roll with it!

Thanks for reading! Peace and much love to you all!


New Poem- I ROSE!

New Poem that I dedicate to Sister… Dr. Maya Angelou. Thank you Sister for having us rise!


I would sing of the body electric,
If my body didn’t act
like a bad extension cord,
Shortin’ out,
sizzling hot!

My body;
Sore and Stiff
With a heart jagged,
like a busted 40 ounce.
Life’s hammer shattering through
Sledgehammers couldn’t break me as much,
Like love and disappointment have.

My mind always running
a world record
at the Chicago or Boston Marathon.
My limbs like a newborn foal’s
awkward and shaky.
Yet my mind overthinking everything,
Leaving me anxiety ridden,
Pain stricken.

Yet as Sister Angelou said,
“Still I rise!”
The world pressing on my shoulders,
Feeling like a ten ton crane,
Still I rise!

I stand
Wobbly knees
Begging to stay up please,
Yet I hear Sister say,
Standing as I can,
Straining to hear the voice,
whispering to me,

Standing straighter,
Not letting pain,
mental or physical,
shake me down.

Standing strong,
Not faultering,
I hear sister say
“Stand strong and love,
Through it all you must rise.”
I stood and smiled
because I rose!